Disappointment

Joey and I have been together for 13 years this May. He started at a church as their Minister of Music the April of the following year. So, I have been "in the ministry" since 1997 in a supporting role. We have served together at 6 churches in those 12 years. I have met many people and grew to love ones at every church. I have seen "Christians" act like fools, babies, sinners, (me included) and the feet and hands of Jesus. I have see it all. Been surprised sometimes. And then sometimes I expect the childishness. But, every time a Brother/Sister in the Lord that I love falls away it hurts deeply. Why do people (that I think should know better) choose things that are not fulfilling. I know that it sounds so "Sunday School" to say the answer is always Jesus. But it is. Jesus. Nothing else fills you like Jesus. NOTHING satisfies like Jesus. Nothing heals like Jesus. nothing...nothing. I was talking to Joey last night about this hurt in my heart and told him how thankful I am everyday to have grown up in a Godly home where Jesus was lived out on a daily basis. I knew at a young age because of my parents, church leaders and lay people, that nothing was going to get me through this world but a personal RELATIONSHIP with Jesus. We are doing our best to relay that message to our girls. It sure will keep them from a lot of life's temptations if they learn that now and hold on to that as they grow. I am not perfect. Not at all. Not even close. BUT, my Savior is. And because of Him, I have His righteousness. What an incredible thought. I am as righteous, in God's eyes, as Jesus because of His sacrifice for me and anyone else who accepts Him.

So, when people disappoint me because of sin that they choose (and I choose) my first place to run and cry is Jesus. He loves them (and me) no matter what. And will forgive us if we just repent. He will fill all the holes in my life that nothing else or no one else can fill. He will never let me down. I can trust Him and so can you.